Nine of Swords

"Worry and anxiety are the literal meaning of this nine. You experience sleepless nights and stress-induced nightmares. Fear runs rampant and you're convinced that your situation will continue to deteriorate and will never change for the better.

You're suffering from intense anxiety. Although your sense of impending doom and disaster may be unfounded, your pain is very real. Apprehension and difficulty sleeping have left you vulnerable to feelings of hopelessness" (181).

So I heard back from the Social Security Administration. I got an email and I didn't look through all the documents that they sent. I was just go excited to hear back from them. I thought that practically got it because they wanted me to fill out a Declaration of Federal Employment. When I took the time this past week to read everything through and they said that the programs I wanted to apply to are filled up already. I was soo incredibly bummed out.

So I kept doing tarot spreads and the cards were telling me different things and i was confused. I kept getting the Nine of Swords though. That was the only constant. I talked to Amanda about it and she said that the cards were probably confused because she has found that cards pick up on your negative energy. This would explain the Nine of Swords. My cards were trying to tell me that I had too much negative energy and that I should come back later when I've cleared my head.

I know by now that the cards don't lie and I have to stand strong and believe that despite the obstacles in my way, that I will get this internship.