Birthday Spread: Ten of Swords

This is the card that scared me. This card represents where I am now. First of all, I always get a little nervous whenever I get swords in a spread, even though I love what that suit stands for. After all, it is my astrological counterpart.

When I first saw the card I got the impression that it was a bad card. However, something drew me to the card. I just held it and felt a very positive vibe. I see the spirit of the man rising toward the Sun when I take a second look at this card.

"You're facing forced change and the final resolution of a situation or the dramatic end of a cycle. You give up on a lost cause and get on with the true purpose of your life. Ultimately you feel relieved, accept the inevitable and move on.

Despite the usually harsh depiction of this card in most decks, it isn't about physical death. [It's about endings, treachery, and misfortune.] It usually spells the end of a relationship, situation, or a particular time in your life. [You may feel as if you've been stabbed in the back by someone you trusted.]

[Your loss seems worse than it is because it's unexpected and ends something you've been counting on.] Actually, the worst is over and now you need to clear out the dead wood before you can move forward.

Spirituality: The death and rebirth of the spirit signal the end of one cycle and the beginning of another. This is connected at a deeper level to the ego's release of some idea to which it has been attached. You may even experience a sense of relief as one portion of your inner struggle comes to an end and you have no choice except to let go.

Empowerment: There is little left in life for you to fear" (182).

This card isn't about backstabbing to me at all. This card is only positive.