Past, Present, Future

Past) Queen of Swords
"This Queen is Pallas Athena, the great warrior queen. She is something of a dichotomy, however, because her readiness to do battle is combined with femininity and creative intelligence.

A woman alone, this queen may be widowed or divorced and is sometimes childless. She is probably an independent career woman with her own ideas and values. Quite often, she is viewed as sister-consort, rather than wife, to the King of Swords. Astrologically, her element is air.

You know how to cut through extraneous information to get to the heart of the matter. You tend to be outspoken, your tongue is sharp. Although you're usually fair and just, you can be vindictive. Secretive by nature, you're able to detect secrecy in others. Things don't come easily; you may have to defend your position and fight for what is rightfully yours.

Empowerment: Having overcome many difficulties, you face the future knowing who you are and where you are going" (99).

So I think this Queen represents part of my personality rather than a situation or a certain person. I feel like it represents strong will and determination and it was with that strength that I found out that I have to direct my energy into something creative.

Present) Four of Swords
"Incarceration is the literal meaning of this card. It can mean a hospital stay, jail term, a period of rest and recuperation, or simply time out for quiet contemplation. Whatever the form it takes, this four signifies a period of inactivity or convalescence and time away from your normal life.

Your strength is exhausted and circumstances conspire to force you to slow down or temporarily drop out and rest. For now you're stuck in neutral. This break in your activities is long overdue; use it to revitalize yourself. Take a vacation, go on a retreat, or just relax and get in touch with your inner self.

Empowerment: Put all your concerns to one side and take time out. You'll emerge renewed and refreshed" (173).

There has been a period of inactivity. I did all of those tarot spreads about the new year and I still feel like I am stalled. I haven't been as active as I feel the urge to be. I haven't been doing Tarot lately and I feel like I need to get back to it again. I need to feel refreshed. However, I have been hanging out with Matt a lot recently and that is always relaxing. But I don't feel relaxed when I am by myself, which is a sign that something is up.

I'm going to move all of my fears to the back of my mind and let the cleansing process begin. I will take this time out in order to think things through and let this process ease my tension and anxiety. I need to combine my inner self with the outter world. I am feeling anxious and I have a lot of nervous energy.

But now that I think of it, maybe this card means more of an incarceration period rather than it trying to tell me to take a time out and relax. All I want to do is jump right into the middle and make some noise. I want to start my path. The incarceration period is something I need to finalize my thoughts and for contemplation before I make a splash. This card is telling me that I need to do this in order to renew myself. To center myself. To listen to myself again, now more than ever.

Future) The Chariot
"It exemplifies the hero's journey and represents ambition, determination, and youthful energy. Its charioteer harnesses his power and talents and forges ahead, driven by a burning desire to succeed. Like Indiana Jones, the charioteer succeeds through a combination of self-discipline, bravado, and sheer willpower.

This is the 'go for it' card and its purpose is to inspire you to test what you have learned and to prove your abilities. Unlike the Fool, the individual who drives the Chariot knows the reason for his journey. You're in the driver's seat and you create your own destiny through your actions.

Empowerment: Through purposeful action, you achieve your goals" (53).

I can already feel that energy building up. This semester is when I will make things happen.