A New Year with a New Direction

So to keep in tune with the last couple of spreads, this all started with the thoughts of Matt and why the Tarot cards seemed to brush over our relationship. (They did, however, tell me that Matt is my soulmate.)

So I was thinking about all of this before the New Year and came to a few conclusions. First of all, with the break-up with Frank I found a new found independence. And I was feeling anxious about that new independence for some reason. Something was driving me to do something. It's kind of like the psyche's way of pushing you to explore and actualize an unrealized potential in your life.

And right now, The Fool defines our relationship right now-which is amazingly good.

And because of the energy of The Fool in my life, I feel like my energy is scattered. But that does not mean that I am on shaky ground. I was strong enough to get through the break-up (even though part of my way of dealing with it was to ignore it at first until I was mentally ready to deal; I basically shut out emotions). Because of all of that energy, I felt restless and wanted to do spreads about Matt and the relationship.

So when I tried to do spreads about Matt and they didn't make sense, I thought about the Six of Rods, which told me that I found what I've always wanted. I also thought about nurturing myself and I started to think that I should just listen to my intuition. My cards already told me that I found the man of my dreams. I just needed to let go of that fear that was still lingering for a little bit and trust my intuition and let that empower me. I no longer needed to do a spread about Matt.

Everything with Matt is great right now and this is a new year, afterall. So with my new found independence and energy, I realized that I just need to direct it somewhere. This matches with the influence of Saturn in the New Year.

I used to not really like Saturn or what it stood for. But now I gained an appreciation for it. It was the influence of Saturn that made me realize what my psyche was trying to tell me. It pushes you to realize what is important.