A New Beginning-I Fought to be Here

As mentioned in the previous blog entry, I fought for this new beginning. I was having a situation with financial aid and I found out that I couldn't afford one more year at AU. There was no other option for me. I was devastated and I hid from my heartache with an extended stay with Matt. He was very supportive and nudged me to face my problems very gently. I did an Evolution Spread on the situation.

1) The Situation as it Exists Now - The Page of Pentacles
"...Finances and education are primary in your life right now" (110).

2) How the Situation will Evolve the next Four Weeks - The Hanged Man
"Think transition, postponed plans, a life in suspension, stagnation and frustration. You need to do a one-eighty in how you perceive something etc." (61).

I thought everything was going perfect until the loan situation happened.

3) Someone or Something that will Affect the Situation - The Lovers
I had to make a choice on what I was going to do and the situation would improve. I had to choose between fighting for AU or not.

4) The Outcome - The World
I would get what I wanted in the end.

Matt nudged me to fight for AU and to demand to talk to someone in charge, like a director of financial aid. I knew he was right but I was nervous that I would get my hopes up just to be denied. However, I knew that I had to fight.

I asked what would happen when I went to talk to AU higher-ups about the situation. I pulled four cards:

1) King of Swords
He "represents law and order and the justice of the establishment. He often has the last word in matters of life and death. Due to his association with authority, this King can symbolize the head of a company or a department" (91).

2) The Chariot
"It represents ambition, determination, and youthful energy. Its charioteer harnesses his power and talents and forges ahead, driven by a burning desire to succeed. The charioteer succeeds through a combination of self-discipline, bravado, and sheer willpower. This is the 'go for it' card and its purpose is to inspire you to test what you have learned and to prove your abilities" (53).

3) Three of Swords
"Heartbreak, loss and disappointment" (171).

4) Five of Rods
"Be firm, stand your ground, and don't give in" (129).

I was concerned about the Three of Swords and asked about it and the Ace of Pentacles flew out while I pulled out two cards.

Ace of Pentacles
"This ace is about positive rewards for hard work" (153).

Five of Pentacles
This card showed me that the Three of Swords came up because I was so afraid that I wouldn't get good news.

Ace of Swords
"Strength in adversity" (168).

In the end, the World did come true! It was a rough start but I damn well deserve it and I will not waste it!