Five of Cups

So after I asked my cards if I did the right thing by breaking up with Frank I tried shuffling the cards again and the Five of Cups fell out.

"There's no way around it: This card is about disappointment, regret and loss. It sometimes refers to an individual who has trouble releasing the past or has experienced an emotional loss that led to complete absorption in sorrow.

There may be an obsession over past wrongs. The bottom line is that it's time to pick up the pieces and go forward.

What's gone is gone. Concentrate on what you have left, not on what you've lost. Take time to experience your grief and disappointment, then move on. It's unwise to try to hide from your feelings, but is equally damaging to cling to unhappy memories. Examine your situation and see what you can learn from your distressing experiences. Then turn your bak on the past and lay the foundation for your future.

Romance: The end of a relationship has left you feeling bereft, adrift, consumed with your loss. You want your former lover to return, but it's not going to happen. You and your depression keep each other company. Unable to face the emotioanl demands of a new relationship, you rebuff potential romantic partners" (MacGregor).

That was exactly how I felt then. I got scared when it said that I should move on and that I wouldn't get back together with Frank. At that time, I was hoping that we would break up and after we both had a chance to grow up that we would reunite. I brushed that aside but I now realize that it was speaking the truth.

I did hide from my feeligngs for a little after the break-up. I would stay up late to the point where I was just so tired that I could fall asleep right away so I wouldn't have to think about it. However, I am dealing with the break-up head-on. On a side note, I thought it was funny that it said that I would rebuff potential romantic partners because I blew Connor off immediately.