Strength Sread

After the previous spread, I tried to ask the cards what will help me in all of this but I felt too scattered. I was thinking too much, I guess. So I did a Strength Spread.

1. Your greatest strength.
2. How you can enhance this strength.
3. How you can apply it to a relationship, project, or event.
4. What this strength brings you.

1. Ace of Swords
2. Moon.
3. Five of Rods
4. Six of Pentacles. (I had this card and another but I felt that this card was better.)

Pivital Moment Spread

After doing the internship spread, I still had more questions. I asked the cards whether this was the semester that everything changes; whether this is the pivital moment in my life or whether this is the time where I answer my calling, whatever that may be. I thought about all of this while I pulled three more cards.

1. The Fool
2. Two of Cups
3. The Hermit

Internship Spread

I wasn't thinking about any one internship in particular but just the general idea of wanting one and which one would suit me more. So I just pulled four cards.

1. Seven of Rods
2. Queen of Rods
3. Nine of Swords
4. Tow of Swords

Past, Present, Future

This is the first spread that I did after one week of classes.

Past = Queen of Pentacles

Present = Four of Cups

Future = Death

Now That the Fog has Cleared...

So I did several spreads after one week of classes way back in late August. I never wrote about them in my journal because I was stressed out from work and classes and the influence of The Lovers. But now I am feeling restless and I want to do my Tarot.

I really want to keep up with this journal because it is really important to me. But I don't know if I will ever have the time I want to devote to this.

So I think that I am going to just write down what cards I got without explaining anything so that I can at least look it up later when I have more time. I just feel like I'm being pulled in several directions or that I might be stretching myself too thin. But I have to do this. I have to prove it to myself...

The Lovers

So I got this card in my Direction Spread. At the time I didn't understand what it meant because it was suppose to tell me what I was moving toward. Now I completely understand what it was trying to tell me.

I have been dating Frank for close to three and a half years. Sandy dragged me along with her to meet her friend from GW. That was the night I met Conor. I was instantly attracted and developed a sort of crush on him. Well, that whole week I was completely torn between the two.

I told Frank. It was weird because he was oddly intuitive. The same week I liked Conor was the week where he just felt like something had happened. I don't know if that is because he knows me so well or because he really just is intuitive when it comes to matters of the heart. Anyways, that caused us to look closer at our relationship. It broght out issues that we didn't know we had; he admitted that he was insecure and I realized that I was feeling confined. We worked through it, though.

We are now more solid than ever. I still sometimes think about Conor though. I think I liked the idea itself more than Conor.

But seriously, how can I not believe in Tarot after this? Even if it doesn't make sense at the time, the cards never lie.